Neha, Nidhi and I were best friends. We used to be together in moments of happiness and sorrow. We were inseparable, always laughing and joking around. But things do not always stay the same….

One day Karan joined school, a naughty sporty good-looking boy. Many fell for him at the first sight, and our Neha was also in the list. In starting it was fun, we used to tease Neha and try to get them set with each other. We used to create situations, so that they get time to spend with each other and finally things started working out as we wanted it to be. One beautiful day, Neha gave us the great news that Karan proposed her and they were in a relationship now. I and Nidhi were very happy for both of them.

But situations had to change again, Karan flunked in science and Neha urged me to help him out with the subject as I was the subject topper. I started teaching him and he used to co-operate due to Neha’s pressure. One day Neha called me and informed that she has got jaundice and wont be able to come to school for around a month but she wanted me to continue helping Karan with science and do the impossible task of convincing him to study.

From the next day my struggle began. Running behind Karan as if I am not helping him out, he is helping me. In the middle of the topic, he will remember all the funny stories and try his best to distract me from the subject. Talk to him about anything other than science, he will be happy. Start talking about science and he will start making excuses to change the topic. So I had to spend hours to teach him one topic. Run behind him in school, go to his house, so that he can clear the next exam and does not get a year back. By god’s grace, he started understanding the subject and getting better with time.

But something was not going right. I fell for him…… In spite of knowing that it was the worst thing that could have happened to me at that point.




We reached the mall, everyone scattered searching for their stuffs, even started checking some shirts. Then I heard Karan’s voice asking me “which colour do you think will suit me more”. He was holding two shirts, one blue checks and one black and blue stripe. I couldn’t believe but just said blue checks hesitantly, he had a similar shirt in school time and it used to suit him a lot.

He asked me “so you liked anything??”

I just said “I am still looking”

He replied “I just saw a Kurta there; I think it will suit you. Why don’t you give it a try?”

I was little uncomfortable, all of a sudden why this guy was acting so sticky. Till yesterday he was not even replying to my greetings then why all of a sudden he is acting so differently.

I said “but I don’t need any Kurta.”

He said “I am not asking you to buy it just try it, maybe you’ll need it after trying.”

I didn’t want to extend the argument and I just tried it, it was looking actually very nice. He had a good taste but I still didn’t want to buy it because he suggested me.

I told him” It didn’t fit me; It was looking weird on me”

He said “ohhh….. fine.”

Then I told him that “I am going to see Neha, I’ll catch you later.”

He smiled and said fine. His smile still had that magic which he had in school time. His eyes still seemed to hold lots of secrets, I wanted to stop and look deep into his eyes but that would have been crazy. I left with a fake smile.

In the night, I was standing on the terrace gazing at the stars. I was lost in the memories of the past and realities of present. Then again I heard Karan’s voice from back.

He said: “so what are you doing here alone??”

I replied: “Nothing.”

Karan:  So how is Mumbai??

Me: It’s good.

Karan: and your office??

Me: Even that’s good.

Karan: So you committed??

Me: No but why are you asking this??

Karan: why can a handsome guy ask this question to a pretty lady??

Me: What do you mean??

Karan: Hahahahahah. Just kidding, you still get so serious on jokes.

Me: Really……

Karan: So you missed me??

Me: aaaaaaaaa……. Yeah.

Karan: Then why didn’t you ever try to contact me.

Luckily Nidhi came to call us for dinner and our conversation ended.

Next morning everyone was so busy with the marriage rituals. Even I was trying to help out. Then Karan came wearing the same shirt he bought yesterday and asked me “So, how do I look now??”

I replied: Nice.

Karan: Do you remember I had a similar shirt in school time? But I never liked that. I don’t know but I like this one.

Me: You are so stupid. Even that shirt used to suit you a lot.

Karan: oh so you do remember.

Me: Yeah a little.

I didn’t know what he wanted or what was he trying to prove. Yeah I used to love him in school time in spite he was my best friend Naina’s boyfriend but I didn’t do it knowingly. I have already paid for it; I lost Naina’s friendship and trust forever. At least Nidhi was the one who understood me and stood by my side. But now I don’t have any feelings for him and if I have also……. No, I don’t have…… TO BE CONTINUED…..


I saw in the mirror, again everything was same, same mornings and same nights. Everything was so regular every day. I took my car and left for office. I reached office greeted everyone and sat on my table. But it was not even that regular, a card was waiting for me, a marriage invitation. It was my school time best friend who was getting married. I didn’t take a leave from two years but now I had to after all it was my best friend. We had shared so many memories. How could I say no but what about the upcoming presentation? I was the team leader for first time how can i ask for a leave but still it’s also been a long time living the same regular life. I started with my regular work still puzzled what should i do.

In the lunch time i got a call from me parents that some guy was coming to Mumbai to meet me and he will only be here for two days. I didn’t want to go for these arrange marriage stuffs so in hurry I said “I can’t meet him. I have to go to attend Nidhi’s marriage, remember my school friend”.  My parents agreed. Now i had said that I was going to the marriage so i couldn’t change me words and i had to go but what about the work. I will have to finish it early and convince my boss that my juniors will be able to manage the presentation.

While packing i was lost in my school time memories, sounds of laughter and pain of tears, all those faces and all those voices. It just seemed like a dream and now i was going to relive that dream. Everyone must have changed so much. I was in touch with many of them on Facebook but some were out of trace. I even dint know who were coming and who were not. But there was someone whom i remembered completely and did not want to face again. I was little scared that what if even he comes and little relieved that it’s been a long time. He also must have forgotten everything and i will also act as i have forgotten everything.

The best part is that i was breaking the chain of me regular life and stepping out of it for a while. At least it will be good break. I got into the train and started reading some architectural magazine. I saw the girl sitting next to me reading some love story book. I smiled and continued with my magazine.

I reached Delhi early morning. Nidhi’s brother was coming to receive me. I reached Nidhi’s home greeted everyone and went to her room. She was looking all different from childhood, from a tom-boy girl to pretty young lady. Even though checking her photos regularly on facebook, i was still not able to believe my eyes and that I am finally standing in front of her. She was looking very beautiful and happy to see me. We both hugged each other and she started telling me how happy she was to see me.  Then she started telling me who all are coming and already reached for the marriage. But I dint even have the courage to ask about him.

Sun had already gone, stars were twinkling, I was looking towards the stars and realizing how long it had been that life has been so peaceful, it’s been such a long time I couldn’t breathe so deep. I was just lost in the race of life without even noticing my heartbeat. And I heard a voice which was so recognizable even though I have heard it after ages. My heart lost its peace and started running fast. I was mentally prepared for this situation and thought I’ll be able to manage but I really didn’t want to face him now. Nidhi brought him towards me and said “this is Priya and this is Karan you guys must be remembering each other”. I said hello but he was damn quite as he dint hear anything. Then Neha and Suman also joined us and started talking about school memories.

I met Karan again at dinner. He was eating so silently as if he was completely out of the place. I didn’t even know whether I should talk to him or not. I was looking at him and he turned towards me. I just acted as I was so much involved in the discussion. I turned towards him again and realized that he was still looking towards me. I felt may be he is finding himself uncomfortable because of me. May be even he has not forgot everything till now. But we were kids at that time. There is no point being stuck in those moments. Whoever’s mistake was, we should move on. We were going to sleep, I said good night to everyone but again he dint reply anything.

In the morning some people were going for shopping even Karan was going but neither I had to buy anything nor I was feeling like going with him. I told everyone that I won’t be able to come but I really don’t know why Karan told “come no how can being a girl you can say no for shopping. If u doesn’t want to buy anything, at least explore the markets here may be you will like something or get something what you needed”. I again don’t know why but I couldn’t say anything and agreed to go for shopping…………. TO BE CONTINUED…….

I Know….You Love Me….

I don’t know what’s going on your mind,
but I know you don’t want to leave me alone.
I know you are not there to hold my hand,
but I also know that you don’t want to see me gone.

You asked me to trust and I tried to do,
but sometimes my faith starts shaking.
I know that I love you from core of my heart,
but sometimes my patience starts breaking.

The way you look at me assures your love,
but I m unable to read your silent lips.
Your touch takes me to another world,
but it’s still hard to continue our relationships.

I think you love me, I think you don’t.
I think you’ll come for me, I think you wont.
You told me, you’ll never hurt me but still you are doing so.
Don’t take me to a point where i’ll have to leave you and go.

I don’t know what should I ask from you.
I don’t want to force you for anything, just be true.
Just do me a favor don’t ever cheat me and
don’t do anything which makes me regret that i loved you.

Still deep inside my heart, there is a stupid wish.
The moment I die you sit beside me holding my hand
and say to me that “it was great sharing our lives”
Come to me, let’s together make our castles of sand.


Don’t know what to say
or how to move away.
He is standing in front of me
but we have become strangers today.

I remember the day
when he was everything to me.
I knew nothing more than him
and made him my destiny.

But he never belonged to me
we were not even good friends
but whatever relationship we shared
even that has come to an end.

I tried to make everything normal but it didn’t work.
I wept a lot for him but he never cared.
I know, he doesn’t want me back
or remember any moment which we shared.

But i think sometimes,
nothing is better than something.
There is a lot more in this world
a single person can’t be everything.

Everyone says I should move on
even i know that this is right.
It’s his wish whom he choose
but still i cry for him every night.

I Need You….

A broken heart, a tensed mind
these are the things which I have now.
I know i have to forget someone
but I really don’t know how??

I tried many times,
but every time I failed.
As I went farther
my heart more pained.

He is sweet, he is cute
but he is not mine.
My mistake is that I loved him
and now I’ll have to pay the fine.

He stays in my heart,
he is always on my mind
but he loves someone else
and my love for him is blind.

Loving him is a crime
but I m still doing it.
My heart is completely broken
but still love is there in every bit.

I always say I don’t care
but I know I lie.
I try to hide my emotions
and my tears when I cry.

I never thought that
this will happen to me.
I will go completely insane
to get someone’s company.



You say yes or you say no,

say a truth or say a lie,

i just wanna hear you,

wanna be with you till i die.


I wanna walk with you,

no matter how the paths be,

wanna share your tears,

just wanna call you me.


You praise me or criticize me,

think once, who am i????

wanna be on your mind for sometime,

wanna be with you till i die


Wanna see deep in your eyes,

and know who you truly are,

wanna be lost in your world,

and leave this world very far.


It may be hard or it may be easy,

i may be land and you may be sky,

there is only one wish i ask from god,

wanna be with you till i die………….